Hi! I was thinking about this space a few days ago, so I came here and read my posts to get a sense of what I was like in my younger days. Was I a weird and angsty teen or what.

Over the years, I've grown to be more at peace with things that happen around me (perhaps having lesser energy). I think I'm still a little weird, I just learned to be smarter about when I show it, probably. My writing style is still uncool and severely lacking in sophistication for a 21 year old as you will see in this post, what's different from the past is that I'm now aware of how bad my writing is.

I'm now 21, going on 22 this year and in my final year of uni as a psychology student. Cringeworthy as my older posts were, I'm glad some parts of my life had been documented on and off - a bulk of my teenage years would've vanished from memory if I hadn't recorded anything in my dumbass blog.

At least I had impeccable taste in blogskin designs. This current blogskin has been here since my secondary school days. I don't actually know how to edit html anymore so it helps that this skin is pretty.

Wow, 5 years huh. It's been an amazing journey getting to where I am right now.

I wasn't awarded student of the year in any of the 5 years I've been away from this space, neither have I gotten scholarships, earned my first million, nor am I receiving an endless stream of job offers from companies.

The only thing I've achieved I think, is the realisation that life is good to me and that I should live it well.

Just to bridge the gap from my last post in Jan 2011 till now May 2016 -

2011 and 2012 were spent in my junior college.
Didn't have the happiest education there mostly due to the stress from A levels. Probably the heaps of homework crushing my fingers and entire body made it impossible to blog during those years. I always wonder if things would've been better if I went to a different school as I wasn't enjoying my time there as much as I would've liked.

Those two years of my life made me realise that I should never regret anything ever - there will always be something good that comes out of a decision. If you lost something out of it, you gain a lesson.

I wasn't completely friendless there anyway, I actually made one or two friends whom I still keep in contact with today, which definitely means something given that several years have passed and we don't get to see each other on a daily basis in that convenient setting anymore. Heck my friends were so nice to me that on both years, they coordinated with the class to hold surprise birthday celebrations for me, and made me a giant birthday board containing photographs of us and a compilation of wishes from all the people I'd known in that school including CCA mates and acquaintances. That was actually the most touching thing any of my friends had ever done for me. I was also taught by a math teacher who had such a passion for teaching and genuine care for her students that she'd consistently schedule individual appointments with weaker students (me) to monitor their progress. When I was applying for uni she very kindly agreed to help me write a recommendation letter. I hope you're doing well, Mrs Lim.
I picked up tennis and had a number of fun teammates. We didn't hang out after we graduated, but I'll always remember the good times learning tennis together as most of us were beginners, which may not have been the case if I'd gone to another school.
I was actually in badminton for the first half of the year to participate in the national competition and I remember training was fun too as it was filled with interesting games and PT that the coaches thought of instead of the usual intensive drills.
Looking back, I probably should give the school a lot more credit than I have (I always breathe a deep sigh when people ask me about my jc years). It was with the credentials from my jc that I managed to get into the course I'd always wanted after all.

Yup, after A Levels I very thankfully scraped my way through just enough to enrol in a course I'd always wanted to study since I was in secondary school. I actually didn't know about this until days ago when I was packing my room and saw that I'd indicated "doctor for mental health" (wx seriously? if you wanted to be one you should probably have known what they were called) on a career planning sheet. It felt really nice that I'm doing something little me had dreamed of doing, there's a comforting sense of affirmation in that.

2013 - present, my uni life has been wonderful. Times that got me really down and also stressed out were aplenty, but it's the massive freedom that comes with a uni education that brings me to a much happier and peaceful state of mind. I'm the type of person that thrives in having freedom. It makes me feel like I'm trusted to be responsible with the time I'm given which urges me to be more productive with this time that I have. By productive I don't usually mean working on projects and studying for tests for hours on end (I never mean that), I mean having a more balanced life by allocating more time doing the things I enjoy, like playing multiple sports, pursuing my interests in music, making friends. In terms of academics, I'm doing surprisingly well for a long-standing underachiever and for that I'm overjoyed and hopeful. It does make a difference when you're studying something you're interested in.

2015 was my favourite year ever as I travelled to US on exchange and met such genuinely kind-hearted people. The experience substantially influenced my perspective on how to conduct myself as a person. I may not be as extroverted or have as great people skills as they do, but it's truly their inherent goodness that is an inspiration I'll carry with me for a lifetime.

I hope future wei xin who reads this is smiling, because even if you still haven't accomplished anything big the next time you chance upon this post, you should be proud of how far you've come. At the time when you were writing this, you've become a person who has learned to truly appreciate the value of living by not getting caught up in the chase for materialistic desires (working to get the most impressive resume, competing fiercely with your peers to secure a high-paying job before graduating etc). Your underachieverness has granted you with a laidback or to put nicely zen-like attitude on life where just being happy, kind, and self-fulfilled in your own ways is enough, and I hope you never change that about yourself.


Just to document a little something that made me happy today:
I congratulated my mentee after seeing her story on Snapchat where she said she'd won her basketball friendly match, and she took a screenshot of my encouragement. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling knowing my words to her were something she wanted to document and remember, like how it gave me a warm fuzzy feeling when she asked if she could add me on the various social media platforms to never lose that connection after the programme ended. Taking up this mentoring opportunity was one of the wiser decisions I'd made in my life. It has been insightful, fulfilling and *eueurgh* just full of fuzzy feels. I miss the sensible, lovable kids.

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You know what I feel like doing sometimes? Sometimes, I just feel like grabbing you by your fatass head so I can drag it into a pile of like, pie-rejects where the pies like taste really bad. Because I wouldn't want you to have your face in any pie that is tasty. Why the hell would I want you to have nice pie?
Then I'll tie you up and walk in circles around you, calling you "bitch bitch bitch!!", and then, then I'll punch the hell out of you. Man, do I feel like punching you.
Just stand still. And make girly squeals when I hit you. If you would just do that for me.



Of course, I could never do that. Already used my rope to tie up my very violent snowman.







So. Today. I had karaoke with my father. I met Miss Chan. (She remembers mee (-:)



Sometimes I don't make sense. It's kinda better that way.

Some things I really miss.



Talking.

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I have so much to say to you but so much is holding me back. I don't want to freak you out. I'll regret it.






HEADED TO HOKKAIDO.
Till Monday, maah bitch-es. :-)

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Hi I don't even know what the hell happened today (yesterday) but I made it through. :-D

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You know how people ask you to treasure things, seize the moment, do whatever you do if you were to die tomorrow and shit. You hear it in songs, movies, from people.
Well, to me the worst thing is that you wouldn't have done anything differently.


Day was alright. I like watching movies alone. HBO is great haha.
I like laughing to myself whenever things make me laugh. I like laughing even when it's not funny. I like being left to think about everything. I like to reminisce even if the outcome of it all was just, shit. I like laughing at my life, I think it's a joke, a pretty good one. Haha.

But who the hell needs to know about me, right? Ahaha.


Oh I feel like slapping someone.
Does that make me mean?

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Damn I HATE ANTS.
NOTE TO SELF: Never, and I mean NEVER, LEAVE THE CAP OF A TIN FULL OF SWEETS OPEN.

AH BITCH ANTS WON'T GET OFF OF ME.



It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe in is you if you only knew.



I still hold onto the letters you returned I swear I've lived and learned.

Hmm nice song.



I'm not even wondering why we never talk anymore.

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"I don't want to give you some kind of sub-standard shit."
Whoa, that sounded strangely sweet.
:-)

I'm really screwed for today's Math test,
wish someone could take it for me!
Hmm. Not a bad idea actually,
anyone on the street can score better. :-)


I've been watching movies at home with my grandma,
haha and it's really not like I'd made plans with her, nooooo,
but well, she just happened to be there. :-)
And it's really tough for me to be a translator,
had a little more trouble translating for Blades of Glory.

"SHE IS NOT A WHORE",
yeah that's hard.



Oh yes, HEY, HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY. (rhymes!)
(By the way, thanks Praveenaaa! :-D)

Days spent have been rather lousy.

OH MY BROTHER FINALLY LIKES A CLCK FIVE SONG! :-D
Well that song is mind-blowingly awesome, after all.
STILL, GOTTA THANK AMSSS! :-D
IQUITIQUITIQUIT.

And it still baffles me how easily Wing managed to overtake me in RC.
I MEAN, SHE JUST STARTED WHAT, COUPLE OF DAYS AGO? :-(
So annoying! Hahahahaha.




“Remember the leprechaun; the one from the cereal ad. He’s always chasing the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow; but when he gets there- at the end of the day; it’s just cornflakes.”
- Morty







It's just cornflakes.

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Omg Japanese're coming over!
:-D

I AM SHOOOOOOBER EXCITED OH MY GOSH!

What if my accomodation doesn't meet their standards. :-(
They did such a fine job while we were there.





Wing Yiu waited for 4 buses. Wing Yiu is great.

Rahffe is very sweet and hot because she melts my heart. :-)

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Get Back.

The most eeeffing annoying song around.
No kidding. :-)




Might be our last tournament next week.

Oh well,
shit happens.

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Wei Xin sucks
please larhs..you soo damn guai still talk about being emo and slitting wristsand u can;t even get into Anderson through your PSLE markssooo dun u dammit that u are in Anderson cuz u could have never made itwith that pathetic score of yours







HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Yeah I went to do the silliest, childiestest thing ever with Zhan Rong:
We went to look for blogs with our names in them.

And look what we scooped up! :-O

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BYE.

Thank goodness for the spoilt tvs at home,
wouldn't have finished packing otherwise.
^_^

Oh I saw a patch of grass moving yesterday!








That was until I realised it was a lizard that did all the moving.
No fun. :-(

Oh
and
HOORAY, I CAN MAKE IT FOR THE BADMINTON CHALET!
And it rhymes too! How nice. ^_^


Goodbye.
I know it'll be hard for you not to miss me, I'm sorry. :'-(

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Stop taking things for granted please.


Life lesson learnt! :-D
Okay.
Things have been quite alright.
Getting really excited about the Japan trip.
Japanese's kinda fun to pronounce. :-D
Training went unexpectedly well today.
Guilt's gone. :-)

Sorry Wing for making you wait for 2 hours.
And, for making you a DDP. :-}
Reb's crime was way worse though, don't you think! :-D

Now that school's over,
nothing fun can take place, really.
Unless you bring a bear home and let it play with your dolls.
Or
not.

Happy Birthday, Mother.

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My word was "bra" when I was playing Guess The Sketch.
So I got banned for my drawing.
:-(



Anyway, day's been boring.
Threw up and had this weird headache since 5 in the morning. :-(
Stomach still feels kinda weird, aeurgh.

Anyway, thanks for your concern and all,
urrrrrh, and he sprained his leg later that day...

Hmmmmm.

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Hey kids.
It's like, 1.30 now.
I'm still up because I really don't feel sleepy. At all.

I think something's wrong with me. Argh. :-(

Yeah, I've finally got the time (and willingness) to post. :-D
Shall do the quiz I owe Wei Lin I guess. (:


Who was the person who tagged you?
WEI LINNN.
What did you think of the person?
I thought she was quiet and innocent.
(I was wrong, apparently. Haha!)

1.Do you eat a lot of fast food?
Just once a day isn't too bad, is it? :-)

2.Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
Come on, don't you people kiss your mamas/papas?!

3.Were you happy when you woke up today?
More of sleepy.

4.What did you last get upset about?
I forgot.

5.Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
YEAH.

6.What about in your 5th sent message?
If you're asking if I eat my 5th sent message on a daily basis, no.

7.Who was the last person you ate with?
Err I had dinner with my family.

8.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Wing.

9.When ordering sushi, what do you get?
I don't know... ...spaghetti?

10.Who was the last person you sat next to?
Meet my pretend-friend, Bob. (LOL, GOTTA LOVE THE NAME BOB! :-D)

11.What were you doing at 10 am?
ER ERR NOT COPYING ALEITHIA'S ANSWERS FOR THE SCIENCE PYP. Really!

12.Have you changed a lot since summer?
Maybe, but it's been the usual- two sets of clothings per day.

13.What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Can't remember. I've spilled a lot of stuff on me.

14.Where is the place you want to be right now?
Disneyland! :-D

15.When was the last time you cried?
I forgot.

16.What's your favorite song at the moment?
SHUT UP AND LET ME GO, (HEY!). :-D

17.What were you doing at 11 last night?
Math.
But no, Wen Jie, not the way you DID your Science PYP. Eww.

18.Who's near you?
No one within my reach! :-O

19.What were you doing at 5am in the morning?
Come on, my insomnia's not that bad.

20.What's bothering you right now?
What elseee?!

21.Who was the last person to talk to you on the phone?
My caring papa.

22.Whose house did you go to last?
I forgot.

23.Who honestly knows everything about you?
OOH, ME, MEEEEE!

24.Who broke your heart?
Don't know, but it must've been one real clumsy person!

25.Honestly, do you love someone very much?
Family and nice people who care about me. :-D

26.Who was the last person to tell you that he/she loves you?
Too. Many. To. Recaaall.

27.Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
Yes I am friends with my mummy.

28.Are there any parts of your body that hurt?
Nope!

29.In the supermarket, the first thing that gets your attention is?
The strong air-conditioning.

30.How cool do you think you are?
ICE COLD, YO.

31.Drugs are?
Almost as addictive as potatoes.

32.Which one do you hate the most?
That one! Okay actually I don't understand the question.

33.Who was the first person to text you today?
Jing Kai.

34.What was the first thing you did this morning?
Well, at 12am I decided not to do my Geog PYP 'cos "it was getting late".

35.Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
Wing? Haha, because I thought my phone was lost so she called it for me.
Turns out it was in my bag! HEHEE.

36.What's the last mistake you made?
Some Math calculation error.

37.What are you listening to right now?
The noise from my fan. :-(

38.Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Damian.

39.Who was the last person to call you?
PAPAAA.

40.Is there anything that you want to say to someone special?
Thanks for standing out from the crowd!
(SPECIAL WHAAAT!)



(ANOTHER QUIZ) :-O

35 little secrets: Be honest no matter what!

[ZERO] Who was your last text from?
Jing Kai.

[ ONE ] Where was your default pic taken?
Which?

[ TWO ] What' s your profile name?
Wei Xin.

[ THREE ] Your relationship status?
Oh I'm married.

[ FOUR ] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes, we were playing hide-and-seek. It was a tough game!

[ FIVE ] What is your current mood?
Pretty neutral.

[SIX] What's ALL of your brothers and sisters names?
Wei Quan.

[SEVEN] What's your favorite color(s)?
I'm cool with most of them. :-D

[EIGHT] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Absolutely.

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
I'm as normal as can be.

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
Maybe.

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
Think to myself.

[TWELVE] Angry at...
Myself. Boohoo.

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you love?
Nothing, I've already made my love known to papa and mama. :-)

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
When I finally caught a brand new episode of Spongebob Squarepants after five years! Ah, tears of joyyy. :-D

[FIFTEEN] Who would you do anything for?
I forgot.

[SIXTEEN] Who has been your favourite boyfriend/girlfriend?
Never had one.

(Hmm where's "[ SEVENTEEN ]"?)


[EIGHTEEN] Do you like someone in your top friends?
LIKE? I love them to bits alright! :-D

[NINETEEN] What kind of phone do you have?
The usual.

[TWENTY] Who do you trust more?
There's gotta be a comparison first! :-O

[TWENTY-ONE] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Kiddy as in involving a lot of kids in the shows or movies? No I guess.

[TWENTY TWO] Have you kissed someone with the following letters m, j, c, p, m, j, f.
Naw.

[TWENTY- THREE ] Do you speak any other languages?
Chinese, yay.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who is your friend that you're really close to?
Hmm, I'm not near anyone right now since I'm at home. So... ...

[TWENTY-FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
Surprising.

[TWENTY-SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Why, is it uncool to kiss when it's bright and sunny?

[TWENTY-SEVEN ] What are you thinking about right now?
Should I watch tomorrow's episode of The Simpsons or should I revise for History instead?

[TWENTY-EIGHT ] What should you be doing right now?
Many things.

[TWENTY-NINE] What is your favorite memory?
There're a lot actually. ;-)

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
The noise from my fan. :-(

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person that told you I love you?
There're LOADS of people who tell me that, so it's no wonder that I can't remember!

[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Obviously some dude who doesn't know how to play nice. :-(

[THIRTY- THREE ] Do you act differently around the person you like?
I like a lot of people, so that's pretty hard to do...

[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
Very dark brown? Haha.

[THIRTY- FIVE] Who was the last person to make you smile?
Damian I think. He was trying to help me cheat for Guess The Sketch! (But of course, I'm not the type who will. :-D) HEH.

DONE!

Okay it's 3.05AM now.
That's bonkerrrs.

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HI.

Today's been okay.
Managed to pack my room a bit. ;-)
But now the floor's in a complete mess 'cos I dumped all my worksheets there...
Eh?


Isn't that worse than being back to square one?






Okay,
SCREW THIS.


Training was really boring.
Well,
until I fell,
and actually realised I was bleeding quite some time later.
I told Rebie "OMG I think I left a piece of my skin in the court!"
and I was like majorly :-O-ing!
Omg, don't you think that's bloody scary too? :-(

History.
Hmm, I can only remember me shivering my ass off the whole time.
Yeah,

it was pretty bad.

Compass with Wing after that.
Ate a lot, but wasn't enough to make me full. :-(
The Subway there opens tomorrow! (:
And it was very heartening to see so many parents bringing joy to their children
by accompanying them to the arcade there. :-)
Really! Like, it's so great to see and almost feel the looooove there.
I know it's weird. Especially when their outings are none of my/our business.
But it's just nice to know 'bout such good love, you know? :-)

Omg I noticed I keep sounding very gay these few days.
Ahh... ...

And I actually went to re-read my Super-Teen huge, heavy booklet.
And it's preeetty hard not to get motivated after reading it mannn. :-D

"When tomorrow comes, today wil be gone forever.
I hope I will not regret the price I paid for it."

Can't believe I still think about that awesomest awesomest awesomeeest camp now and then...




OKAY OKAY,
EMO MOMENT OVER.


It's a Saturday today!
Hopefully I can
START
on my homework when I wake up.

You heard me,
yes,


START
on my homework.

Somehow,
I sense that I am going to be in
serious,
deep,


shit.

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HELLO, KIDDAYYYYYES.

I think James Morrison's album makes one (me)
feeeeel calmmm.
Haha that's cool. :-)

Venn Diagrams are annoying.
Mdm L's life seems very interesting. So interesting she has to constantly brag about it. She's getting on my nervesss, roar.
I've purchased 3 packets of Famous Amos cookies in one day.
Benjamin's a gayhole, he kept drawing hearts on our group work, which he had to snatch away from us, and even
crossed out those that were ugly. The wonders of love. ^_^
I don't know what to feel about my Science marks.
Sixty-something doesn't look very pretty for Science.
Liked my English marks though. Ahah.

Oh yay Steph's gonna go Japan!
Must be 'cos of me huh. :-)

Didn't go training today!

Reached home at 8 instead, JUST awesome.
I'm not even sure if there was supposed to be a sarcastic tone to that.







:-(

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The Man Who Can't Be Moved
IS SO ADDICTIVE.
The song's quite dumb. But sweet. :-)

Today's been quite okayyy.
Yesterday was better though. )-:

I was in a good mood in the morn 'cos I realised D&T's not today.
But what the eeeeefff man, it's tomorrow. :-(
Sigh, bloody hate that waste-of-life subject.

Did overdue history filing during Math remedial.
Managed to sleep a little during cyber wellness.
It was unexpectedly dull. OH WELL.

I keep sleeping during lessons.
Walao eh. :-(

I ate a chocolate ice-cream with chocolate filling during recess,
laksa during lunch,
3 different kinds of chocolate after I reached home,
and a whole bag of nachosss by myself!
Oh yeah, I think I forgot to mention I've throat irritations/sore throat/cough.
:-D

Okay I have nothing else to tell you guys right now.
I've learnt to "keep my stuff private" in cyber wellness. :-O
AHAHA!

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Hello.

Men questions are quite simple to answer.

Mensuration.

Sorry 'bout all this men thing, it's some kind of short form thingy in my mind, you see. :-D
Formulas're easy to remember if you practise a lot a lot. :-D
THANK YOU, two hours long of Math tuition-

For the first time I feel that my memory's prooo.
:-)

I love Jason Mraz's album cover hahaha.
The album with his cartoony face at the front.
Omg the interior's damnnn cuteeeee. :-D

"J. MRAZ
AMERICAN MUSICIAN
OCCASIONALLY BEARDED"
(Bearded Jason Mraz drawn above)

Yeah you should get it.

But don't be a moron and buy it just to check if I'm lying to you.

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I feel damn useless.
I've lost my uniform.
Left it in school, can't recall where I've left it, though.

That adds up to 9 items lost over the past three freaking days.
JUST 3 FREAKING DAYS DAMMIT!
Well,
unless you count my council badge and my name tag going missing as well...

Eleven items. Three days.

Really, when you lose things too many times within a short period of time,

you will become emo.

:-(

I've gone "WHYYYYYYY?! WHYYYYYYY WHYYYYYYY?" countless of times.
Why me. Why the hell is it me.
Never got an answer though.

I haven't broken a mirror, walked under a ladder...
SO WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
:-(

Anywayyy,

Math was okay,
just about getting the hang of men.
I mean mensuration.

HMT.
She managed to go through
2 questions from our cloze passage.
It's not that hard to guess what she did for the rest of the lesson...

Gotten back our english compos.
I think I got too high a mark,
'cos he described a "WHAT-YOU-SHOULD-NOT-WRITE"
compo to the class.
And my story was practically, well... THAT.
But I suspect that the "I" in my compo is a gay, not a girl.
Yeahhh, think that's the only difference. :-)

Science is very interesting. Science seems to be like magic!
Wei Xin likey magic. :-)
Had a question that I really really wanted to ask.
Was too :-$ though.
I asked Jerome, hoping to stump him.
Well...
He answered it, pretty well, and called me a noob.
Eh wait. But water vapour isn't water what!
Ah!

Stayed back for council.
Seeing the number of people who're willing to do their part is pretty
depressing. And I actually felt bad for coming 5 minutes late?

New Malay teacher's cool 'cos she gave out Yuppie Burgers. Thanks for yours Wing. (:
If not I might've almost fainted. Again.
Realised I've been skipping lunch the whole school week.
Been busy.

Training was great. Relieved that expensive plan didn't need to be carried out. Felt guilty for constantly arriving late. The string of my new racket kinda sucksss. Bummer. The shirt discussion thing was really cool, we seemed like we were having a group bonding or something. I was actually enjoying it. We should have this more often mannn.

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Hi! I was thinking about this space a few days ago, so I came here and read my posts to get a sense of what I was like in my younger days. Was I a weird and angsty teen or what.

Over the years, I've grown to be more at peace with things that happen around me (perhaps having lesser energy). I think I'm still a little weird, I just learned to be smarter about when I show it, probably. My writing style is still uncool and severely lacking in sophistication for a 21 year old as you will see in this post, what's different from the past is that I'm now aware of how bad my writing is.

I'm now 21, going on 22 this year and in my final year of uni as a psychology student. Cringeworthy as my older posts were, I'm glad some parts of my life had been documented on and off - a bulk of my teenage years would've vanished from memory if I hadn't recorded anything in my dumbass blog.

At least I had impeccable taste in blogskin designs. This current blogskin has been here since my secondary school days. I don't actually know how to edit html anymore so it helps that this skin is pretty.

Wow, 5 years huh. It's been an amazing journey getting to where I am right now.

I wasn't awarded student of the year in any of the 5 years I've been away from this space, neither have I gotten scholarships, earned my first million, nor am I receiving an endless stream of job offers from companies.

The only thing I've achieved I think, is the realisation that life is good to me and that I should live it well.

Just to bridge the gap from my last post in Jan 2011 till now May 2016 -

2011 and 2012 were spent in my junior college.
Didn't have the happiest education there mostly due to the stress from A levels. Probably the heaps of homework crushing my fingers and entire body made it impossible to blog during those years. I always wonder if things would've been better if I went to a different school as I wasn't enjoying my time there as much as I would've liked.

Those two years of my life made me realise that I should never regret anything ever - there will always be something good that comes out of a decision. If you lost something out of it, you gain a lesson.

I wasn't completely friendless there anyway, I actually made one or two friends whom I still keep in contact with today, which definitely means something given that several years have passed and we don't get to see each other on a daily basis in that convenient setting anymore. Heck my friends were so nice to me that on both years, they coordinated with the class to hold surprise birthday celebrations for me, and made me a giant birthday board containing photographs of us and a compilation of wishes from all the people I'd known in that school including CCA mates and acquaintances. That was actually the most touching thing any of my friends had ever done for me. I was also taught by a math teacher who had such a passion for teaching and genuine care for her students that she'd consistently schedule individual appointments with weaker students (me) to monitor their progress. When I was applying for uni she very kindly agreed to help me write a recommendation letter. I hope you're doing well, Mrs Lim.
I picked up tennis and had a number of fun teammates. We didn't hang out after we graduated, but I'll always remember the good times learning tennis together as most of us were beginners, which may not have been the case if I'd gone to another school.
I was actually in badminton for the first half of the year to participate in the national competition and I remember training was fun too as it was filled with interesting games and PT that the coaches thought of instead of the usual intensive drills.
Looking back, I probably should give the school a lot more credit than I have (I always breathe a deep sigh when people ask me about my jc years). It was with the credentials from my jc that I managed to get into the course I'd always wanted after all.

Yup, after A Levels I very thankfully scraped my way through just enough to enrol in a course I'd always wanted to study since I was in secondary school. I actually didn't know about this until days ago when I was packing my room and saw that I'd indicated "doctor for mental health" (wx seriously? if you wanted to be one you should probably have known what they were called) on a career planning sheet. It felt really nice that I'm doing something little me had dreamed of doing, there's a comforting sense of affirmation in that.

2013 - present, my uni life has been wonderful. Times that got me really down and also stressed out were aplenty, but it's the massive freedom that comes with a uni education that brings me to a much happier and peaceful state of mind. I'm the type of person that thrives in having freedom. It makes me feel like I'm trusted to be responsible with the time I'm given which urges me to be more productive with this time that I have. By productive I don't usually mean working on projects and studying for tests for hours on end (I never mean that), I mean having a more balanced life by allocating more time doing the things I enjoy, like playing multiple sports, pursuing my interests in music, making friends. In terms of academics, I'm doing surprisingly well for a long-standing underachiever and for that I'm overjoyed and hopeful. It does make a difference when you're studying something you're interested in.

2015 was my favourite year ever as I travelled to US on exchange and met such genuinely kind-hearted people. The experience substantially influenced my perspective on how to conduct myself as a person. I may not be as extroverted or have as great people skills as they do, but it's truly their inherent goodness that is an inspiration I'll carry with me for a lifetime.

I hope future wei xin who reads this is smiling, because even if you still haven't accomplished anything big the next time you chance upon this post, you should be proud of how far you've come. At the time when you were writing this, you've become a person who has learned to truly appreciate the value of living by not getting caught up in the chase for materialistic desires (working to get the most impressive resume, competing fiercely with your peers to secure a high-paying job before graduating etc). Your underachieverness has granted you with a laidback or to put nicely zen-like attitude on life where just being happy, kind, and self-fulfilled in your own ways is enough, and I hope you never change that about yourself.


Just to document a little something that made me happy today:
I congratulated my mentee after seeing her story on Snapchat where she said she'd won her basketball friendly match, and she took a screenshot of my encouragement. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling knowing my words to her were something she wanted to document and remember, like how it gave me a warm fuzzy feeling when she asked if she could add me on the various social media platforms to never lose that connection after the programme ended. Taking up this mentoring opportunity was one of the wiser decisions I'd made in my life. It has been insightful, fulfilling and *eueurgh* just full of fuzzy feels. I miss the sensible, lovable kids.

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You know what I feel like doing sometimes? Sometimes, I just feel like grabbing you by your fatass head so I can drag it into a pile of like, pie-rejects where the pies like taste really bad. Because I wouldn't want you to have your face in any pie that is tasty. Why the hell would I want you to have nice pie?
Then I'll tie you up and walk in circles around you, calling you "bitch bitch bitch!!", and then, then I'll punch the hell out of you. Man, do I feel like punching you.
Just stand still. And make girly squeals when I hit you. If you would just do that for me.



Of course, I could never do that. Already used my rope to tie up my very violent snowman.







So. Today. I had karaoke with my father. I met Miss Chan. (She remembers mee (-:)



Sometimes I don't make sense. It's kinda better that way.

Some things I really miss.



Talking.

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I have so much to say to you but so much is holding me back. I don't want to freak you out. I'll regret it.






HEADED TO HOKKAIDO.
Till Monday, maah bitch-es. :-)

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Hi I don't even know what the hell happened today (yesterday) but I made it through. :-D

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You know how people ask you to treasure things, seize the moment, do whatever you do if you were to die tomorrow and shit. You hear it in songs, movies, from people.
Well, to me the worst thing is that you wouldn't have done anything differently.


Day was alright. I like watching movies alone. HBO is great haha.
I like laughing to myself whenever things make me laugh. I like laughing even when it's not funny. I like being left to think about everything. I like to reminisce even if the outcome of it all was just, shit. I like laughing at my life, I think it's a joke, a pretty good one. Haha.

But who the hell needs to know about me, right? Ahaha.


Oh I feel like slapping someone.
Does that make me mean?

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Damn I HATE ANTS.
NOTE TO SELF: Never, and I mean NEVER, LEAVE THE CAP OF A TIN FULL OF SWEETS OPEN.

AH BITCH ANTS WON'T GET OFF OF ME.



It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe in is you if you only knew.



I still hold onto the letters you returned I swear I've lived and learned.

Hmm nice song.



I'm not even wondering why we never talk anymore.

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"I don't want to give you some kind of sub-standard shit."
Whoa, that sounded strangely sweet.
:-)

I'm really screwed for today's Math test,
wish someone could take it for me!
Hmm. Not a bad idea actually,
anyone on the street can score better. :-)


I've been watching movies at home with my grandma,
haha and it's really not like I'd made plans with her, nooooo,
but well, she just happened to be there. :-)
And it's really tough for me to be a translator,
had a little more trouble translating for Blades of Glory.

"SHE IS NOT A WHORE",
yeah that's hard.



Oh yes, HEY, HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY. (rhymes!)
(By the way, thanks Praveenaaa! :-D)

Days spent have been rather lousy.

OH MY BROTHER FINALLY LIKES A CLCK FIVE SONG! :-D
Well that song is mind-blowingly awesome, after all.
STILL, GOTTA THANK AMSSS! :-D
IQUITIQUITIQUIT.

And it still baffles me how easily Wing managed to overtake me in RC.
I MEAN, SHE JUST STARTED WHAT, COUPLE OF DAYS AGO? :-(
So annoying! Hahahahaha.




“Remember the leprechaun; the one from the cereal ad. He’s always chasing the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow; but when he gets there- at the end of the day; it’s just cornflakes.”
- Morty







It's just cornflakes.

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Omg Japanese're coming over!
:-D

I AM SHOOOOOOBER EXCITED OH MY GOSH!

What if my accomodation doesn't meet their standards. :-(
They did such a fine job while we were there.





Wing Yiu waited for 4 buses. Wing Yiu is great.

Rahffe is very sweet and hot because she melts my heart. :-)

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Get Back.

The most eeeffing annoying song around.
No kidding. :-)




Might be our last tournament next week.

Oh well,
shit happens.

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Wei Xin sucks
please larhs..you soo damn guai still talk about being emo and slitting wristsand u can;t even get into Anderson through your PSLE markssooo dun u dammit that u are in Anderson cuz u could have never made itwith that pathetic score of yours







HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Yeah I went to do the silliest, childiestest thing ever with Zhan Rong:
We went to look for blogs with our names in them.

And look what we scooped up! :-O

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BYE.

Thank goodness for the spoilt tvs at home,
wouldn't have finished packing otherwise.
^_^

Oh I saw a patch of grass moving yesterday!








That was until I realised it was a lizard that did all the moving.
No fun. :-(

Oh
and
HOORAY, I CAN MAKE IT FOR THE BADMINTON CHALET!
And it rhymes too! How nice. ^_^


Goodbye.
I know it'll be hard for you not to miss me, I'm sorry. :'-(

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Stop taking things for granted please.


Life lesson learnt! :-D
Okay.
Things have been quite alright.
Getting really excited about the Japan trip.
Japanese's kinda fun to pronounce. :-D
Training went unexpectedly well today.
Guilt's gone. :-)

Sorry Wing for making you wait for 2 hours.
And, for making you a DDP. :-}
Reb's crime was way worse though, don't you think! :-D

Now that school's over,
nothing fun can take place, really.
Unless you bring a bear home and let it play with your dolls.
Or
not.

Happy Birthday, Mother.

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My word was "bra" when I was playing Guess The Sketch.
So I got banned for my drawing.
:-(



Anyway, day's been boring.
Threw up and had this weird headache since 5 in the morning. :-(
Stomach still feels kinda weird, aeurgh.

Anyway, thanks for your concern and all,
urrrrrh, and he sprained his leg later that day...

Hmmmmm.

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Hey kids.
It's like, 1.30 now.
I'm still up because I really don't feel sleepy. At all.

I think something's wrong with me. Argh. :-(

Yeah, I've finally got the time (and willingness) to post. :-D
Shall do the quiz I owe Wei Lin I guess. (:


Who was the person who tagged you?
WEI LINNN.
What did you think of the person?
I thought she was quiet and innocent.
(I was wrong, apparently. Haha!)

1.Do you eat a lot of fast food?
Just once a day isn't too bad, is it? :-)

2.Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
Come on, don't you people kiss your mamas/papas?!

3.Were you happy when you woke up today?
More of sleepy.

4.What did you last get upset about?
I forgot.

5.Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
YEAH.

6.What about in your 5th sent message?
If you're asking if I eat my 5th sent message on a daily basis, no.

7.Who was the last person you ate with?
Err I had dinner with my family.

8.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Wing.

9.When ordering sushi, what do you get?
I don't know... ...spaghetti?

10.Who was the last person you sat next to?
Meet my pretend-friend, Bob. (LOL, GOTTA LOVE THE NAME BOB! :-D)

11.What were you doing at 10 am?
ER ERR NOT COPYING ALEITHIA'S ANSWERS FOR THE SCIENCE PYP. Really!

12.Have you changed a lot since summer?
Maybe, but it's been the usual- two sets of clothings per day.

13.What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Can't remember. I've spilled a lot of stuff on me.

14.Where is the place you want to be right now?
Disneyland! :-D

15.When was the last time you cried?
I forgot.

16.What's your favorite song at the moment?
SHUT UP AND LET ME GO, (HEY!). :-D

17.What were you doing at 11 last night?
Math.
But no, Wen Jie, not the way you DID your Science PYP. Eww.

18.Who's near you?
No one within my reach! :-O

19.What were you doing at 5am in the morning?
Come on, my insomnia's not that bad.

20.What's bothering you right now?
What elseee?!

21.Who was the last person to talk to you on the phone?
My caring papa.

22.Whose house did you go to last?
I forgot.

23.Who honestly knows everything about you?
OOH, ME, MEEEEE!

24.Who broke your heart?
Don't know, but it must've been one real clumsy person!

25.Honestly, do you love someone very much?
Family and nice people who care about me. :-D

26.Who was the last person to tell you that he/she loves you?
Too. Many. To. Recaaall.

27.Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
Yes I am friends with my mummy.

28.Are there any parts of your body that hurt?
Nope!

29.In the supermarket, the first thing that gets your attention is?
The strong air-conditioning.

30.How cool do you think you are?
ICE COLD, YO.

31.Drugs are?
Almost as addictive as potatoes.

32.Which one do you hate the most?
That one! Okay actually I don't understand the question.

33.Who was the first person to text you today?
Jing Kai.

34.What was the first thing you did this morning?
Well, at 12am I decided not to do my Geog PYP 'cos "it was getting late".

35.Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
Wing? Haha, because I thought my phone was lost so she called it for me.
Turns out it was in my bag! HEHEE.

36.What's the last mistake you made?
Some Math calculation error.

37.What are you listening to right now?
The noise from my fan. :-(

38.Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Damian.

39.Who was the last person to call you?
PAPAAA.

40.Is there anything that you want to say to someone special?
Thanks for standing out from the crowd!
(SPECIAL WHAAAT!)



(ANOTHER QUIZ) :-O

35 little secrets: Be honest no matter what!

[ZERO] Who was your last text from?
Jing Kai.

[ ONE ] Where was your default pic taken?
Which?

[ TWO ] What' s your profile name?
Wei Xin.

[ THREE ] Your relationship status?
Oh I'm married.

[ FOUR ] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yes, we were playing hide-and-seek. It was a tough game!

[ FIVE ] What is your current mood?
Pretty neutral.

[SIX] What's ALL of your brothers and sisters names?
Wei Quan.

[SEVEN] What's your favorite color(s)?
I'm cool with most of them. :-D

[EIGHT] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Absolutely.

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
I'm as normal as can be.

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
Maybe.

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
Think to myself.

[TWELVE] Angry at...
Myself. Boohoo.

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you love?
Nothing, I've already made my love known to papa and mama. :-)

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
When I finally caught a brand new episode of Spongebob Squarepants after five years! Ah, tears of joyyy. :-D

[FIFTEEN] Who would you do anything for?
I forgot.

[SIXTEEN] Who has been your favourite boyfriend/girlfriend?
Never had one.

(Hmm where's "[ SEVENTEEN ]"?)


[EIGHTEEN] Do you like someone in your top friends?
LIKE? I love them to bits alright! :-D

[NINETEEN] What kind of phone do you have?
The usual.

[TWENTY] Who do you trust more?
There's gotta be a comparison first! :-O

[TWENTY-ONE] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Kiddy as in involving a lot of kids in the shows or movies? No I guess.

[TWENTY TWO] Have you kissed someone with the following letters m, j, c, p, m, j, f.
Naw.

[TWENTY- THREE ] Do you speak any other languages?
Chinese, yay.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who is your friend that you're really close to?
Hmm, I'm not near anyone right now since I'm at home. So... ...

[TWENTY-FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
Surprising.

[TWENTY-SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Why, is it uncool to kiss when it's bright and sunny?

[TWENTY-SEVEN ] What are you thinking about right now?
Should I watch tomorrow's episode of The Simpsons or should I revise for History instead?

[TWENTY-EIGHT ] What should you be doing right now?
Many things.

[TWENTY-NINE] What is your favorite memory?
There're a lot actually. ;-)

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
The noise from my fan. :-(

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person that told you I love you?
There're LOADS of people who tell me that, so it's no wonder that I can't remember!

[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Obviously some dude who doesn't know how to play nice. :-(

[THIRTY- THREE ] Do you act differently around the person you like?
I like a lot of people, so that's pretty hard to do...

[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
Very dark brown? Haha.

[THIRTY- FIVE] Who was the last person to make you smile?
Damian I think. He was trying to help me cheat for Guess The Sketch! (But of course, I'm not the type who will. :-D) HEH.

DONE!

Okay it's 3.05AM now.
That's bonkerrrs.

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HI.

Today's been okay.
Managed to pack my room a bit. ;-)
But now the floor's in a complete mess 'cos I dumped all my worksheets there...
Eh?


Isn't that worse than being back to square one?






Okay,
SCREW THIS.


Training was really boring.
Well,
until I fell,
and actually realised I was bleeding quite some time later.
I told Rebie "OMG I think I left a piece of my skin in the court!"
and I was like majorly :-O-ing!
Omg, don't you think that's bloody scary too? :-(

History.
Hmm, I can only remember me shivering my ass off the whole time.
Yeah,

it was pretty bad.

Compass with Wing after that.
Ate a lot, but wasn't enough to make me full. :-(
The Subway there opens tomorrow! (:
And it was very heartening to see so many parents bringing joy to their children
by accompanying them to the arcade there. :-)
Really! Like, it's so great to see and almost feel the looooove there.
I know it's weird. Especially when their outings are none of my/our business.
But it's just nice to know 'bout such good love, you know? :-)

Omg I noticed I keep sounding very gay these few days.
Ahh... ...

And I actually went to re-read my Super-Teen huge, heavy booklet.
And it's preeetty hard not to get motivated after reading it mannn. :-D

"When tomorrow comes, today wil be gone forever.
I hope I will not regret the price I paid for it."

Can't believe I still think about that awesomest awesomest awesomeeest camp now and then...




OKAY OKAY,
EMO MOMENT OVER.


It's a Saturday today!
Hopefully I can
START
on my homework when I wake up.

You heard me,
yes,


START
on my homework.

Somehow,
I sense that I am going to be in
serious,
deep,


shit.

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HELLO, KIDDAYYYYYES.

I think James Morrison's album makes one (me)
feeeeel calmmm.
Haha that's cool. :-)

Venn Diagrams are annoying.
Mdm L's life seems very interesting. So interesting she has to constantly brag about it. She's getting on my nervesss, roar.
I've purchased 3 packets of Famous Amos cookies in one day.
Benjamin's a gayhole, he kept drawing hearts on our group work, which he had to snatch away from us, and even
crossed out those that were ugly. The wonders of love. ^_^
I don't know what to feel about my Science marks.
Sixty-something doesn't look very pretty for Science.
Liked my English marks though. Ahah.

Oh yay Steph's gonna go Japan!
Must be 'cos of me huh. :-)

Didn't go training today!

Reached home at 8 instead, JUST awesome.
I'm not even sure if there was supposed to be a sarcastic tone to that.







:-(

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The Man Who Can't Be Moved
IS SO ADDICTIVE.
The song's quite dumb. But sweet. :-)

Today's been quite okayyy.
Yesterday was better though. )-:

I was in a good mood in the morn 'cos I realised D&T's not today.
But what the eeeeefff man, it's tomorrow. :-(
Sigh, bloody hate that waste-of-life subject.

Did overdue history filing during Math remedial.
Managed to sleep a little during cyber wellness.
It was unexpectedly dull. OH WELL.

I keep sleeping during lessons.
Walao eh. :-(

I ate a chocolate ice-cream with chocolate filling during recess,
laksa during lunch,
3 different kinds of chocolate after I reached home,
and a whole bag of nachosss by myself!
Oh yeah, I think I forgot to mention I've throat irritations/sore throat/cough.
:-D

Okay I have nothing else to tell you guys right now.
I've learnt to "keep my stuff private" in cyber wellness. :-O
AHAHA!

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Hello.

Men questions are quite simple to answer.

Mensuration.

Sorry 'bout all this men thing, it's some kind of short form thingy in my mind, you see. :-D
Formulas're easy to remember if you practise a lot a lot. :-D
THANK YOU, two hours long of Math tuition-

For the first time I feel that my memory's prooo.
:-)

I love Jason Mraz's album cover hahaha.
The album with his cartoony face at the front.
Omg the interior's damnnn cuteeeee. :-D

"J. MRAZ
AMERICAN MUSICIAN
OCCASIONALLY BEARDED"
(Bearded Jason Mraz drawn above)

Yeah you should get it.

But don't be a moron and buy it just to check if I'm lying to you.

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I feel damn useless.
I've lost my uniform.
Left it in school, can't recall where I've left it, though.

That adds up to 9 items lost over the past three freaking days.
JUST 3 FREAKING DAYS DAMMIT!
Well,
unless you count my council badge and my name tag going missing as well...

Eleven items. Three days.

Really, when you lose things too many times within a short period of time,

you will become emo.

:-(

I've gone "WHYYYYYYY?! WHYYYYYYY WHYYYYYYY?" countless of times.
Why me. Why the hell is it me.
Never got an answer though.

I haven't broken a mirror, walked under a ladder...
SO WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
:-(

Anywayyy,

Math was okay,
just about getting the hang of men.
I mean mensuration.

HMT.
She managed to go through
2 questions from our cloze passage.
It's not that hard to guess what she did for the rest of the lesson...

Gotten back our english compos.
I think I got too high a mark,
'cos he described a "WHAT-YOU-SHOULD-NOT-WRITE"
compo to the class.
And my story was practically, well... THAT.
But I suspect that the "I" in my compo is a gay, not a girl.
Yeahhh, think that's the only difference. :-)

Science is very interesting. Science seems to be like magic!
Wei Xin likey magic. :-)
Had a question that I really really wanted to ask.
Was too :-$ though.
I asked Jerome, hoping to stump him.
Well...
He answered it, pretty well, and called me a noob.
Eh wait. But water vapour isn't water what!
Ah!

Stayed back for council.
Seeing the number of people who're willing to do their part is pretty
depressing. And I actually felt bad for coming 5 minutes late?

New Malay teacher's cool 'cos she gave out Yuppie Burgers. Thanks for yours Wing. (:
If not I might've almost fainted. Again.
Realised I've been skipping lunch the whole school week.
Been busy.

Training was great. Relieved that expensive plan didn't need to be carried out. Felt guilty for constantly arriving late. The string of my new racket kinda sucksss. Bummer. The shirt discussion thing was really cool, we seemed like we were having a group bonding or something. I was actually enjoying it. We should have this more often mannn.

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